dl this song: I Wish by Luis Fonsi... so sad.. T__T argh.. brings back memories... not so good memories *sigh* why does it all have to come back now? Why... cant i forget? and just move one? also for you korean folk listen to Boa- Waiting.. T__T so sad.. ahaha but has NOTHING to do with me :-p welps.. anyhoo.. been eh.. kinda in an interesting mood ahahah =T cant straighten out wats in my heart, so many things colliding against eachother, sometimes... sometimes, i just feel like im alone ='( like, ahahah nm,.. i keep goin over the question on how could ANYBODY love me?.... ahahahaha ive had some fake friends b4 and its not fun... you put all ur trust in one person, you tell them everything and then they turn on you and F you over...EVERYTHING IS COMING BACK... T__T past crushes, past love... (one love only.. ahaha.. first love.. T_T), and lost friends... mbe i still have feelings for some of these ppl... mbe.. just mbe... i still like them.. but wats the use? ill set myself up for failure, and disappointment and heartbreak just like in everything else i do. it reminds me of a poem i wrote a couple months back... I look from a distance from which i try to please,
yet.. there is always a barrier in between,
I try my best to succeed but am always pushed back
what can i do? what can i say?
why should i even try?
hmmm and also a little blip about love
to love is to be lost
to have loved is to be gossiped about
to have no love is to live in eternal lonliness?.
I try as hard as i can.. but nothing turns out the way that it should.. here's one last poem that i wrote, and it carries true meaning.....
Once upon a shooting star
I made one true wish
I wished that you wouldnt be too far
this was my one true wish
but where are you now?
where have you gone?
I wished upon a shooting star
that you and I would be one
but far and far that fateful star
was why i became undone
i put my faith in such a silly thing
thinking that it could come true
that one wish upon a shooting star
What else could I do?
for you and I are far in spirit
each day i love you more
you pass me every day
your scent leads me your way
only to be stopped by the cold wall of lonliness
when will i be free
from this cold stone prison
to be able to be loved once more
I wish i may i wish i might but it does me no good
for that fateful wish
and in that empty star
i have forever sealed my fate.
T_T... *sigh*... i dont know why ive been like this lately, but i sure wish i knew why.. Mbe someone stirred up feelins in me without me knowin it.. or.. ionno... -__-' and also to boot Valentines is comin up... ahaha...how depressing.. ironic isnt it? Valentines is supposed to be a time for happiness and love, yet, i dont feel anything close to that... and.. hMmm.. Come to think of it, there hasn't been a ... oh never mind.. its not important. ..... | 
